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now the deadline to submit my dissertation. Actually, I should be 10 weeks processing time, however, it is 11.5. Funny complain, but I do not want me!
This has also worked with the costume yet, and I've sewn up in the Friday morning and after 4 hours of sleep still had to change a few odds and ends. Under the theme "Character & Costume" subsequent Larp was also very nice! =)
otherwise I Have finally created a work plan with dates when I finished what part will have - that of the final work. Hope so klappts better now. 've Given away nearly a week. Would not be so bad if I had not set myself as a noble goal to two weeks leave before the actual appointment. ;)
But that ultimately depends also on the cooperation and proofreaders. So let's see how it works.
I made the observation that evening, I'm cold a lot more than the morning. I often sit here in the morning without turning up heating and do not disturb me in it. In the evening I turn it on the other hand, now almost completely cold. Stupid. xD "
Yoa ... and now? Since the weekend
I think about my New Year's Eve planning. Only my sister wanted to celebrate with me, but she prefers the company of her husband, but who wants to come here not because he is too busy. Then I had the opportunity to celebrate with my "horror girls" a New Year's Halloween. But as the latest possibility is now a Larp by an old friend to come. Quite cheap and not so far away misery. But I'm not quite sure because it does not work, of course, 3-4 days in BA work.
And even worse is that I did not know what character I play should. Would actually want to play the elf, but ... I can not. This has brought me much to ponder yesterday - and unfortunately all the frustration stirred up again. (Now it could be really much again ...)
games the past three years, I with my LARP group, and two years ago was my elf candidate in the Order. Two years she has only a Spagath (? OO) tries between their duties as a writer and scout and later as a diplomat and the Order. This has garnered some of her problems because she has always done much more for the Order to go with this, was home to neglected and then has made even some shit. You should now finally be banished this fall, as I do this as a logical consequence of my game and finally see this limbo would be terminated because it could totally go to the Order. In the Order, however complain that they never could be. Always quatscht only with others. (The solution of the problem is probably that "the others" just talk to her really, in contrast to the majority of the group.)
Then in the early summer of this year, died in her master and foster father. Therefore, she was appointed a diplomat and had many new tasks and duties entrusted to him once were. She also suffers greatly from their last father figure is gone now. But not two weeks later comes the officer in the Order and its group to ask "Will you now finally to us?" - What, damn it, have thought it? NOTHING! Definitely. Of course, they have rejected in the moment, after which it was announced that they now "honorary member" is, but that would mean nothing but eternal young scientists and access to religious storm by invitation only.
ie turn, that the elf its voters was taken. She has worked for two years then To come to order. She has to listen to all the Schmäreden have what they wanted in such an "institution" and yet they stood it. And then "Goodbye". It is hoped
solace from her friends and was rather lack of understanding of their grief and met with a useless title, which for them is anything but an honor.
Now I can connect the design of my character in the bin. And the same can follow the religious habit, which I had of course already sewn.
What makes me most aufreget thing is the lack border intrested on my character on the part of the organization of my group. (Verallgemeinerung!) now currently discussing a new candidate - it is talking about! But no, I will simply be a ready decision in a fucking moment in my face - in the game, because instead of just talking to me about it. Unlike most others, has in fact talked with me by the organization never to planning my character and his career. I've only been with the resulting squeezed again and again. Ultimately, nothing of that helped.
Hey, I do not play LARP, because I like to put much money into nothing, I play it, because I have an interest in the development of characters - and not only my own. This is what I find interesting about it! What gives me pleasure and joy!
And this I can not put into words how disappointed I am. And what a rage sometimes comes up in me.
I am now trying for a while already play my character consistently. This probably means, unfortunately, that there also is no turning back. Furthermore, also that the elf is now homeless. (Or annoying the Baron ...) And she is too proud and hurt to come back crawling to the Order.
I do not expect anyone reading this. For most, I am probably just a freak who is constantly betakes into a flight from reality! I think however that I speak only half as much about all this shit and would be writing if we would only listen to me properly. I'm being met with such a lack of interest that decreases my interest in the hobby every day. When the then "Hey, I have a real life" is gepart I could disengage.
end, I just do not know why I'm a Larpgruppe him, as if a little interest for my game.
give and take. I hear me their nutty ideas - they are rare. The difference is just that I also transpose the interest of others, but not as long lasting.
For the next year planned a new character, so I can play with the group. But honestly, I feel no urge my investment in this new framework to build ...
I also play the eleven of my heart, because I'm in there put so much time and effort. So many beautiful, sad memories as well have done with. And now I have no desire to do so. And that also has an impact on all other plans. Finally, I will not replace them. And in a somewhat half-hearted I would certainly not invest the time ...
Uh, would read this now, someone from the group, would be / are either disappointed because it is one of the few people who fit or not, it might sour / upset / whatever, because It is one of the other people who find everything just not interested and therefore can not understand why I write such a thing. =)
The problem with the whole thing is that sometimes I just know too little Larp in my area. Otherwise I would give to the Order shit a cent, but simply the Enjoy friendships that I maintain in the group and leave the hobby out of it. The other would make it easy. But in the absence of alternatives ...
Harsh words. Now I hope that no one reads this from my LARP group. But I'm so well known for "Much Ado About Nothing" and exaggerations, so they should put it to yes.
Bla, will now be trimmed, a little preparation and then it again to work. ^ ^
Uh! I have my Shisinden Harry Potter Doujinshi collection complete! Incredible! The were now at least 4 years! * __ *
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